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Hate me
نویسنده : - ساعت ٤:۱٤ ‎ق.ظ روز ۱۳۸٥/۱٢/٧
 
Man kollan alagheyi nadaram ke dar in weblog mesle webloge khodam rage be music harf bezanam choon midoonam mardom ziad khosheshoon nemiad. ama bazi az ahanga hast ke adam vaghti bahashoon ashna mishe, bedoone inke barash mohem bashe ke baghie chi fekr mikonan, lazem midoone ke in ahango be hame moarrefi kone.
Ahnagi ke in dafe roo weblog gozashtam, moteallegh be goroohi hast be name "Blue October". baare avali ke man clip e in ahango didam bekhatere inke khanade fogholadde ghiafeye ajaghi dare, ziad hal nakardam, vaali baadesh in ahang az ye ja behem resid va bishtaro bishtar bahash hal kardam.
Matne ahang ye joorayi jalebo ajibe va vaghti ke ahang shoroo mishe yek intro hast ke madare taraf dare barash rooye answering machine ye peigham mizare ke felani, mikhastam haleto emooz beporsam, choon ye moddat hast javabe tel hamo nemidi va man negaran shodam. age mishe be man ye zangi bezan. clip ham dar vaghe hamin joori shoroo mishe ke taraf nesheste va answering machine dasteshe va dare goosh mide. baad matne ahang rage be khode in shakhse khanade hast ke che adame depressi hast va che basati dashte va toosh dare be gooneyi az madaresh tashakkor mikone. hala ahng ro age goosh bedin khodetoon bishtar mifahmin.
Chizi ke tavajjohe mano fogholadde be in ahang jalb kard va arzeshesho baram 100 chandan kard, ine ke baad ha dashtam ye jayi ye chizi mikhoondam rage be in group va fahmidam ke in daastan, daastane vagheyie khode khanade hast. Khanadeye group be khatere moshkelate ravani majboor mishe ke dar timarestan ye moddat bastari beshe. in ettefagh dar maahe October miofte va be hamin dalil hast ke esme group hast "Blue October".
Baad ha ke in adam az timarestan morakhas mishe hamchenan tahte darmane darooyi boode va madaresh kheili bahash dar tamas boode va be noyi moraghebat mikarde. Dastne in sher barmigarde be akharin tamase telephonie madaresh ke avale ahang hast va mikhaste haale ino baad az chand moddat beporse, vali baad az zadane zang, madar mimire va in shakhs hich vaght nemitoone javabe telephone ro bede.
In ahang dar vaghe be gooneyi bayangar ehsasate in shakhs baad az in vaghe e hast.

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space


Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.


I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so f****** far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind


Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.


And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
For you

 
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